Victories, Nano, & an olde time 

First, let me say CONGRATULATIONS TO MY HOME TOWN CUBBIES BRINGING HOME THE WORLD SERIES AFTER 108 YEARS! It’s about freakin’ time, boys! Let’s keep it going and do it again! Take a play from the Blackhawks play book!

Second, it’s November which means NanoWrimo time is here again. Yes, I have a book in mind. Or, at least, a start of one. Characters are playing around in the ol’ brain. Will I complete it? Hardly. Will I give it a huge shot? Hopefully, provided my family doesn’t.. bother me or embarrass me or something of the distraction sort that causes myself to tank. That’s not even Anxiety talking! It’s just computer location and I have a hard time expressing myself, even in written word, with someone around. Especially if they’re walking behind me at constant paces or constantly asking me ‘What are you doing?’. I would tell you if I wanted you to know.

So we’ll see how that goes. Wish me luck, will you? 

That being said and novel writing month rearing it’s ugly head it’s because of Nano that reminds me of my favorite books. One series sticking out the most that I never got a chance to review as I read them before I even realized there was a book reviewing world. While their books and movies have long come to a close their story continually brings me back to them even in my worst of times. I may not read their books or watch their movies constantly like crazed fans I know but pictures or mentions, tattoos or role play I do with a friend online still brings me great joy. In fact, I have many a book tattoo based on this series planned whenever I can figure out my life and working plans. 

The series I brag about is The Twilight Saga. 

*waits for inevitable whiny groans*

Yes, I know most don’t enjoy it and would like this saga to go away into the darkness they think it deserves. No, I’m not one of those delusional types that doesn’t realize that YES, IT HAS IT’S ISSUES. I’m a grown woman. Bedroom stalking is weird, I’m aware, among other things. Let me cut in and remind you, it’s a paranormal, NOT REAL series. However, as a reader and reviewer, hear me out and let me get through this before you judge MY reasoning for enjoying this series so much. Even for as old as I am now (31, I was in my early 20s when I started it.)

Book: Twilight
Genre: Young adult, fantasy, romance, paranormal
Publisher: Little, Brown
Publication date: October 5, 2005

Synopsis: Isabella Swan’s move to Forks, a small, perpetually rainy town in Washington, could have been the most boring move she ever made. But once she meets the mysterious and alluring Edward Cullen, Isabella’s life takes a thrilling and terrifying turn. Up until now, Edward has managed to keep his vampire identity a secret in the small community he lives in, but now nobody is safe, especially Isabella, the person Edward holds most dear. The lovers find themselves balanced precariously on the point of a knife-between desire and danger.

I first saw the first book in my sisters elementary Scholastic Book Week sales magazine. The cover drew me in and the synopsis caught me last. I thought it was going to be a quick read so while I had some baby sitting money I went to Borders (RIP *Tear*) and grabbed the first book. I had no idea what the Twilight Saga was or how large each book from the first-on was going to be. I was SURPRISED at how large Twilight was.
I was equally surprised I fell in love with it as immediately as I did, let alone that I finished it in three days. That’s a record for me. I never read anything but text books in high school. I HATED reading as a kid. I just didn’t have the imagination for it. Twilight jump kicked my book -OBSESSION-. 

Given where I live now I had no other thing to do BUT read. If I wanted entertainment I had to make my own and Twilight started an obsession I didn’t know I had with in me.

Twilight embodied something so important for me. It was so different unlike anything I had read before. The situation of the vampires and how they lived, their lore with the vampire overlords The Volturi, their eating habits, their skin etc. So much was so different that I knew Twilight was a series I needed in my life. 

What first drew me in was the paranormal aspect. I was born and raised by a hair brained mother, as Bella called Renee, but in a very different way. My mother loved vampires, wizards, dragons, and anything else paranormal. So when she died in 1999 of cancer and I was finally able to… process what had happened I realized I didn’t really have much of her to hold on to at all. No specific item or anything of that keep sake sort. It wasn’t until I found Twilight that it struck me I had even lost any interest for anything paranormal. And I LOVED Vampires. She raised me on them. I used to watch Dark Shadows as a kid for fun!
So when Twilight came about and I picked up the first book only to swallow it in three days the next thing I know I’m picking up New Moon. But then I notice I’m also reading Moon Called by Patricia Briggs which is mainly an upfront Werewolf series. I’m searching for books left and right of all paranormal kinds. It was as if Twilight had woken me up and reconnected me with my mother again. I had that shared connection with her again. It started to piece me back together in the depression and anxiety that, while I still suffer greatly, was the darkest hole I had ever been in my life. I was no longer that person. Twilight made me feel better. 

The next pull of the Twilight saga wasn’t so much, for me, the epic romance itself. It’s just that she handled the romance in a way that meant a lot to me and my morals and still does ten years later. While contemporary reads are meant to take the realistic and hormonal situations and portray them as they often play out in real life, Stephenie eloquently handled that man/woman desire until the Bella and Edward were married in book four (Is that really a spoiler now? lol). This all happening in one human and one heightened sense, vampire, blood lusty way. The way she handled the heavy handed romance, which I’ve been burned on before by being over baring in other books, was just elegance. True first time feelings. Experiences. Despite the bruising vampire strength, of course! LOL! Stephenie did something that was very important to me in my younger years. It gave me a sense that waiting for the right person was alright. Being who I am and what my values were was completely okay. 

New Moon really stuck with me. The biggest part being when Edward left Bella and the heart break felt like she was being ripped apart into a million pieces. While, in the real world, it’s not healthy to wallow over a boy in such a deep depression like that both in book and movie these scenes resonated with me because I’ve been there. I’ve felt a love that deep for 6 years and it was pulled out from under me over a holiday and it left a deep scar. He didn’t come back like Edward did but I know that pain of wanting to scream over nightmares, lay in bed, sob, not go to school or out. New Moon was a powerful book for me and, surprisingly, it helped piece me back together because it was nice to know a character could feel what I felt and then take me on a journey I needed to go on.

Eclipse was my favorite book but then upon movie releases then re-read I’ve determined Breaking Dawn is my favorite now! 😉

Of course the action sequences were amazingly fun! The fact that the problems never ended but all made sense. Between the trio of the nomads, or the humans having to stay in the dark, the vampire army making their way from Seattle to Forks, then finally the wolves becoming truly involved as the main enemy. Having to cross that line and possibly take one humans life to save the rest of the town. Even the chance of having to kill an infant! An innocent, nearly. There were so many twists and turns over who the next enemy could be it was fun to see where the story took you. 

I got into the saga late but I jumped into the bandwagon like I had always been there. 

  • I did the 5 movie marathon at AMC for the premiere of BD pt2 to be one of the firsts to see it. 
  • I have all the sound tracks.
  • The Illustrated Guides.
  • Name the merchandise I probably have it.
  • Friends got me a signed Eclipse book from Forever Twilight in Forks 2015.
  • Multiple copies of the books (both hardcover and paperback) and Life & Death: Twilight Reimagined.
  • Multiple copies of the movies including the FOREVER bluray dvd set & the extended set.
  • Shirts.
  • Hoodies.
  • Posters.
  • Postcards from different movie locations.

My love for this series is insane but I believe Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight Saga saved my life. I was spiraling and Twilight revitalized me and gave me something to look forward to. It branched my love for books. My collection of books and fandoms is.. enormous now.

If I could talk to Stephenie Meyer once I’d love to just tell her thank you. Let her know what she did for me despite her being finished with Vampires. That I’m not one of those over obsessed (and frankly SCARY) fans but I’m a fan of hers because she did something extraordinary for me. 

I’ve wanted to do a review of the Twilight Saga and it’s meaning to me since the beginning of time. It’s only been now that I’ve been able to think about how to put down words of the emotions I’ve felt. Chances are I might add to this later as I’m sure I’m missing things.

I hope, one day, I can write something as amazing as she, Suzanne Collins, Leigh Bardugo, Garth Nix, and so on where I bring joy with my written word.


(C) to the person whose pic I used above.


One thought on “Victories, Nano, & an olde time 

  1. This is such an interesting review, I have so many thoughts on it! I really love the way you explained your love for the paranormal, I like that you can have something like that that connects you to your mother. And, as someone who was obsessed when I was younger (let’s not talk about THAT fanfiction…) I definitely understand where you’re coming from! The way the vampire world works is really fascinating. I can’t agree with you on the romance side of things, though. I just don’t think it’s healthy the way they are with each other, and it encourages that possessive relationship, and says its okay when it really isn’t. Sure, her feelings are nice, but I can’t look past everything that’s wrong with it. It’s interesting to read such a detailed review from a fan!
    (commenting from the #eotybh chat)

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